I am trying to figure out how to write in English again.

Sometimes, being somewhere for a long time can make you feel lost. However, if you stick with it and stay where you are, you usually find your bearings again. Once you find your way, you may have enough time on your hands to wonder why you did not begin to feel lost earlier. Why did you not realize earlier that you did not know WHERE you were, who you were, and how you got there? The answer is self-centeredness. Self centeredness is like having a rather big bubble around yourself and carrying your image of your world around with you like a turtle that never got its head out of its shell. So maybe you simply never realized WHERE you were. So that's my little bit of practice in Eng comp for tonight. We'll work on it more later =)